Love I do Resist

Sometimes this lonely gets so loud my peace I cannot hear.
The darkness blinds my hope, and all I've got is fear.
And yet I hear the whispers of the guilt and all the shame,
and I see the life I wanted, and the reasons all to blame.
And in the coldness of alone-ness, I feel a presence there.
Swallowing up in sadness, wondering who could care.
Claws that clasp around me, begging me be still.
And yet my mind is racing for thoughts that do not feel.
A numbness that I seek but a pain too sharp to dull,
an emptiness inside me, yet my baggage is so full. 
They say that time will heal but for now the hurt persists.
My soul dried out from all these tears as love I do resist.